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I was sitting  on the pavement stopping traffic in the middle of a busy Phoenix  thoroughfare at rush hour with five other  activists. A large banner was  laid out on the ground between us that read: ICE, STOP DEPORTING  ARPAIO’S VICTIMS. Helicopters were hovering overhead in an overcast sky  that thankfully kept the temperatures down to a bearable 98 degrees. 
Hundreds  of people surrounded us with signs and banners, chanting, bullhorns  blaring: “Whose streets?  OUR streets!” Friends brought us water and  candy; little offerings to help ease the tensions.  Police dressed in  full riot gear lined up and advanced, one lockstep at a time. There was  just one way this was going to end and it involved a trip to jail. 
  
Part I: Targeting ICE 
We  took that street to protest the nation’s first and most notorious state  immigration law, SB1070. Our target was the Phoenix headquarters of  Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) on busy Central Avenue; a  location that was pretty much guaranteed to draw attention. 
ICE  was in our sights because of its complicity in Sheriff Joe Arpaio’s  arrests of undocumented immigrants during his infamous sweeps that have  targeted brown people indiscriminately, no matter what their status. ICE  has deported over one million people since Obama took office, over  46,000 of which are working parents of U.S. citizen children. Thousands  of these children have been placed into foster care because of the  resultant destruction of families.  Without ICE’s collaboration, Sheriff  Joe’s notorious raids would be curtailed or severely limited. 
Presidential  administrations have always had discretion about how vigorously they  enforce immigration laws and Obama’s has turned into a deportation  machine on steroids. As a lifelong Democrat and more recently a human  rights activist, I was sick of trying to reconcile the discrepancies.  I  finally felt it was time for action. 
A large anti-SB1070 civil rights march had been planned to take place on April 25th,  the day the Supreme Court heard Governor Jan Brewer’s challenge to the  enjoined parts of SB1070. The law never went into effect due to being  struck down by lower courts before it could become enacted in 2010. The  news emerging from the hearing on the day of the march was not good and  tensions were rising as people anticipated the worst from the decision  expected in June. 
SB1070’s  passage was the final straw that ended my timidity about getting  involved and speaking out against what I perceived as unjust laws. Even  as a child I remember admiring the few white folks who had the courage  to march with Martin Luther King, Jr and later I learned about the  Freedom Riders and white allies who braved the dangers of Klan violence  in the deep south to help register voters. Those were my role models  during my younger years and I realized it was time for today’s white  allies against oppressive laws to step up and provide the same role  models that guided me. So when I was asked if I would be willing to  participate in civil disobedience that would result in my arrest and  detention in the Maricopa County Sheriff’s Office (MCSO) dreaded Fourth  Avenue Jail in Phoenix, I hesitated only for a moment before saying,  “I’m in.” 
My  hesitation was based on my underlying health issues. I have rheumatoid  arthritis and fibromyalgia, both conditions that present challenges to  me on a daily basis but that I also try to ignore as much as possible so  they don’t dictate my life. I knew there would be some discomfort  involved but I figured I’d get through it somehow. 
I should have hesitated more because Arpaio’s jail is a very dangerous place. The list of deaths from  beatings and Tasings by guards and medical neglect of inmates is long,  depressing and has cost Maricopa County tens of millions of dollars in  lawsuit settlements. The most recent was Marty Atencio,  a Latino Gulf War veteran who suffered from bipolar disorder and who  was repeatedly Tased and choked by MCSO guards last December and then  left alone in a cell to die. The entire episode was captured on video and  quickly went viral, ensuring yet another huge lawsuit against the  county.  Though the chances were small of anything like that happening  to me, it was still something that I should have considered. 
  
Part II: Taking the Street 
The  April 25th protest consisted of a march to various points of interest  in the city of Phoenix. First stop was City Hall, then the Phoenix  Police Department,  Sandra Day O’Connor Federal Courthouse, Sheriff Joe  Arpaio’s Fourth Avenue Jail, Arpaio’s penthouse offices in the Wells  Fargo building and finally ending at the ICE headquarters on Central  Avenue. 
I  was tasked with helping deliver water to various points in the march.  After I was finished I made my way to the ICE building and joined my  fellow protesters. I donned a white tee-shirt with “Not One More”  emblazoned on it and when the crowd of marchers reached us we took our  banner and stepped into the street. 
Our  group consisted of five women and one young man. Sandra, Danielle,  Jovana and Tony are all Chicanos; Jesse and I are white.  My companions  were in their twenties and thirties and I was the oldest at 52. 
Sandra  walked out into the street with her hand held up authoritatively like a  traffic cop to stop cars with us following closely behind and within  seconds we had our banner unfurled on the ground and we took up our  positions sitting and kneeling around it. The entire crowd of several  hundred marchers entered the street with us chanting,  “Stop 1070, we  will not comply!” “Si se puede!” and other slogans. The media and  cameras materialized out of nowhere.  We had taken the street. 
The scene was chaotic and noisy but described by  one newswoman as a kind of “organized chaos.” Since the police were  anticipating civil disobedience they very quickly materialized,  lined  up in riot gear between us and the light rail tracks and advanced. We  were each given a warning that we would be arrested if we did not move  and one by one we were pulled to our feet, our hands zip tied behind our  backs, and marched off to a paddy wagon. Within about 40 minutes all  the protesters were off the street. 
What  followed over the next twenty-two hours was a very surreal experience  for this middle-aged privileged white woman.   I’d heard many stories of  incarceration of activists and had been instructed on what to expect.   While those instructions were helpful, they still didn’t prepare me for  what I was about to go through. 
  
Part III: Booking 
The  paddy wagon was a small bus that was divided into two holding areas  with a metal partition between; women on one side, men on the other.   After the six of us were loaded on, we were surprised when three more  male protesters were nabbed out of the crowd and also brought onto the  bus. 
One  of the young men arrested  was loud and swearing at the cops. He was  violently slammed against the partition several times by one police  officer as we all shouted and booed the cop. I angrily told the officer  that his actions were extremely unprofessional, something that actually  seemed to have an effect because he felt the need to explain himself to  me. “There comes a time when you just can’t take any more of their  crap,” he said. I simply repeated myself, saying that there was never  any excuse for unprofessionalism. 
Fortunately  the abuse of the young man stopped, but I’d felt a twinge of real fear  from that incident; all I could think of was Marty Atencio, who had  received a death sentence for being mouthy and uncooperative. The last  thing anyone wanted was for someone to get hurt, or worse, as a result  of our protest. 
After  the arresting riot cops left us in the paddy wagon things settled down.  We started joking and laughing, mostly to beak the tension. I quickly  realized that having my arms tied behind my back was extremely  uncomfortable. Fortunately my sweaty hands were able to slip the zip  ties and I could just pretend I was still cuffed if anyone looked. Soon  all us women had slipped our cuffs and as the driver played music on the  radio we used our zip ties as fake microphones for dramatic effect to  sing along. We all screamed the lyrics we could remember to “Girls Just  Wanna Have Fun” and when we expressed dislike of one song the driver  turned it up full blast just to show that he too had a sense of humor.  Hilarity ensued and it helped keep our minds off of the uncertainties  that waited ahead. 
Our  first stop was Phoenix Police Department central booking station. We  were taken off the bus, zip ties removed (actually the female officer  told me, “You can stop pretending your hands are in the zip ties now”)  and replaced with metal handcuffs, fortunately with our hands in front  this time. Our belongings were removed and bagged, we were frisked,  fingerprinted, identified, mug shots taken and then placed in tiny 4×8  foot cells. One of the officers asked us what “Not One More” on our  shirts meant and we told him it meant not one more deportation. He  laughed and said that was the motto they should have at central booking:  Not One More person arrested. 
Jovana’s  information was not found in the state ID system so they held her back  and loaded the rest of us into a small van to be taken to MCSO’s Fourth  Ave Jail. Jovana would spend the next two hours in that little cell and  we didn’t see her again until the next morning. 
  
Part IV: Fourth Avenue Jail 
We  arrived at Fourth Ave at about 9:00 PM. Our van turned into a giant  garage door with Sheriff Joe Arpaio’s name on it and a sign proclaiming  we were entering a “State of the Art” facility. We drove into the bowels  of the huge building the size of a city block.  A TV cameraman was  there waiting and filmed us as we were walked through the parking garage  towards the door to the intake area. That’s when we got our first  inkling that we were considered high-profile prisoners. 
I  was first in line to be interviewed by a nurse and since I had medical  conditions I was told to provide a urine sample. They locked me into a  small cell with a toilet, where I learned that pulling your pants up  with handcuffs isn’t as easy as it looks. Then they took my sample and  left me in there until I was to be called to talk to another nurse. I  started getting nervous about being separated from my friends, our hope  was that we’d be able to stay together and since we’d already lost one  member my worries were somewhat justified. Somewhere in a cell nearby a  mentally ill woman was screaming, sobbing, shouting and then screaming  again, “Don’t leave me alone! Don’t leave me alone! AAAAHHHHH!”  It was  very disconcerting and once again the ghost of Marty Atencio haunted my  thoughts. 
Finally  they let me out, I saw the nurse and she carefully recorded the  medications I was on– though I don’t know why because I never was given  any of them the rest of the time I was incarcerated. Then I was sent to  the booking room to join everyone else. Relief ensued at the sight of my  friend’s faces. 
Next  our mug shot was taken again and we had to say where we were born and  the last four digits of our social security numbers. We waited as our  names were called to enter another room where they removed our  handcuffs, made us remove any outer clothing we had on and our shoes and  socks. We were finger printed again and then assumed the position with  hands against the wall, legs spread and were thoroughly frisked by a  female guard and our pockets turned inside out. One member of our group  was asked if she was carrying anything in her vagina, which of course  she denied but none of us had to have a cavity search. Again, since we  were “high profile” it’s very possible we were given some leeway in how  we were treated. 
The  inside of the jail is a confusing series of block wall hallways with  endless doors and glaring fluorescent lights. Prisoners are always told  to line up against a wall and then marched in a single line down the  hall followed by the guard. We were told which turn to make and at which  door to stop. After our frisking we were given back our clothes and  shoes and after the men were separated from the women, we were marched  off to our first cell. 
The  cells, known as “tanks” were ten foot by seventeen foot off-white  painted cinderblock rooms. Cement benches lined three walls with seating  for about twelve. The benches were divided every two feet with a raised  metal bar to clip handcuffs to and to make sleeping on them difficult.   There were three Plexiglas windows looking out to the hall so you can  see in and look out and there was a toilet with a short privacy wall on  one side. The toilet was stainless steel with no seat and the toilet  tank had a water fountain on it for drinking and hand washing. The air  temperature was decidedly on the chilly side. 
Our  first tank had between ten and fifteen women in it. They were mostly  younger, in their twenties to thirties and predominantly white with a  few Latinas and Native Americans. The whole time I was there I only saw  two African-American women inmates.  The women were cordial and very  curious about us in our matching shirts so we told them we were arrested  for civil disobedience and protesting. They were all absolutely  astonished that anyone would purposely go to jail, especially the Fourth  Ave jail, which they unanimously agreed was the worst jail anywhere  (and many had sampled other facilities so they knew what they were  talking about). They were also unanimous in their disdain for Sheriff  Joe, whom they referred to as a “sick bastard”  along with many other  unflattering terms. 
The  first thing I noticed when I arrived in the tank was a young woman  curled up in the fetal position on the floor facing the wall with wads  of toilet paper around her. She was dressed in a skimpy tank top and  short shorts. I eyed her closely to make sure she was breathing because  she was so still. Ribbons of toilet paper and grapefruit rinds littered  the floor of grey cement that was spotted and stained and obviously  something you had to think twice about laying your body on. Other women  were lying on the benches or the floor with their arms pulled inside  their shirts or shirts pulled over their heads trying to keep warm. Most  were dressed in the clothes they were arrested in, a few wore prison  stripes with the word “UNSENTENCED” stenciled on the back with the  signature pink socks and tee-shirt and orange plastic sandals. We all  leaned against the wall or sat on the floor because that was the only  place available. 
Some  women were quiet and others were non-stop talkers. We were regaled with  stories of how and why they were arrested, all about their kids and  families on the outside and what to expect during our time inside. Many  were frequent fliers to the criminal justice system, seemingly locked in  a cycle of incarceration, bail bondsmen, fines, no-shows at court,  warrants, parole violations, re-arrest, and transfers to women’s  detention facilities, including the infamous Tent City. All were  non-violent offenders, mostly for minor things like driving with a  suspended license, possession of drugs, cashing bad checks, or alleged  neglect of children. One woman was there because her boyfriend was  choking her during a fight and when the police arrived they saw her  defensive scratches on his face and no marks on her. Another was accused  of theft of $100 from her employer’s cash drawer. A young woman dressed  in prison stripes was arrested when she accompanied her boyfriend to a  foreclosed home he was stripping of fixtures.  Some were admitted drug  users;  one woman had the characteristic “meth bites” on her face and  the vast majority were seriously craving nicotine. They all had stories  and advice to give each other on how to navigate the complex system they  were trapped in. 
  
Part V: The Matrix 
They  called it The Matrix, and their description fit. Once you were in The  Matrix it was very hard to get out.  You never really knew what was  going to happen next and you were constantly kept off balance by the  system. Time lost all meaning and you had to beg for the time from a  guard; some purposely never carried watches so they couldn’t tell you.  It was all about power and control and keeping people subdued. It was  also a  place of cruelty, inflicting unnecessary discomfort as  retribution on a vast population of inmates who had not even been  adjudicated. In Joe Arpaio’s world, everyone arrested is guilty and  deserving of punishment until proven innocent. 
Within  an hour we were taken in groups of five to a room to once again be  fingerprinted and there we were given a card with our charges printed on  it. All four of us were charged with disorderly conduct and obstructing  a thoroughfare. But when we compared cards later we saw that some of us  were given misdemeanor one charges for blocking a thoroughfare, others  got misdemeanor two and another got misdemeanor three. Those of us with  the more serious misdemeanor charges also had “fighting” as part of the  disorderly conduct charges. We joked that the only thing we could be  accused of fighting was unjust laws like SB1070 and laughingly we put  our fists in the air shouting, “Fight the power!” as the rest of the  women looked on quizzically. 
The  bond amounts ranged from $650 to $1000. Mine was $850 since I had a  “fighting” charge. We all knew we’d be released on our own recognizance  once we got to see the judge during our initial appearance so the bond  amount wasn’t an issue. But since an M1 charge was a far bigger deal  with mandatory jail time than an M3 charge, there was still some cause  for concern. 
When  we were coached before our arrest we were told as much as possible  about what to expect while we were inside. We knew about the food, that  the rooms would be cold, that we’d be moved around a lot and never know  what time it was. All this was true. We were also told we could expect  to see a judge sometime around midnight and released a couple of hours  after that. This turned out to not be true. When we got our charges we  were told that the next misdemeanor court time would be 10:00 the next  morning. We had twelve hours ahead of us before we could go to court and  no idea how much time after that before our release. 
The  first thing that became apparent to me after a short time inside was  that the surfaces were all hard. The benches and floors were cement.   I’m a person who cannot sit or stand on hard surfaces for any length of  time without pain; significant pain. I was already in some distress by  10:00 that night and when I heard I had potentially fourteen more hours  there my heart sank like a stone. There was no chance of getting even a  Tylenol inside so I knew I was in for a rough ride ahead. 
After  about an hour or so, the metal door slid open with a clang and a guard  called us by name to come out of the tank, stand along the wall and then  march down the hall. He was a surly jerk who yelled into one tank full  of men as we walked by, threatening them with bodily harm if they didn’t  behave. He then gave us the insulting order not to look into the tanks  “at your baby daddies” as we walked by. Of course I did look, not  because of the baby daddy possibilities but because I was curious and  even that small act of disobedience was worth it. We went by tank after  tank down one hall and up the next. Most had men in them, a few had  women. Some in stripes, some in street clothes. In contrast to the women  I saw, the vast majority of men were minorities. Finally we turned down  one side hall and were put into another tank, this one full of about  twenty women. 
Since  it was late this tank had its floor covered with sleeping bodies and  the benches were all taken up that way too. A woman guard came in and  started asking certain inmates about their underwear, “What color  panties are you wearing?  What color bra?” Then she led them all out. I  asked what was going on and was told they were headed to another room  for their “dressing down.” Dressing down is when you trade your street  clothes for prison stripes. This only happens to those who will not be  released soon, mostly those headed to the dorm-like jails on the west  side of the city, where Tent City was also located. The women who were  with us in stripes were waiting for their court appearances or to be  assigned to a different jail. Most went to one called Estrella, which  they pronounced “Australia”. These jails were far, far better than  Fourth Avenue because they had beds and blankets and other luxuries like  toothpaste. 
Fortunately  we were now down to about fifteen people in our tank and a spot on a  bench opened up for me. It was late but I knew that sleep was going to  be impossible. My friends all were curled up on the floor but when I  tried to do the same I learned quickly that not only was it deathly  cold, my joints simply couldn’t take it. It was going to be a long  night. 
  
Part VI:  The Long Night 
As  the night progressed the temperature dropped. Several women around me  were shivering and shaking. The toilet paper roll was passed around to  unravel and try to provide some insulation between freezing bodies and  heat-sucking concrete. The skinnier drug addicted women suffered the  most. The benches were far warmer but only a few could use them. We had  been warned about how cold it would be inside and I was instructed to  wear a hoodie but it was hot outside that day and I figured I could get  by with two tee shirts and jeans, shoes and socks. I was wrong. 
Taped  to the outside of one of the windows of our tank was a notice about how  the jail had been court ordered to comply with several conditions,  including providing meals that met the caloric requirements of the USDA  and to keep the temperatures below 85 degrees. Apparently a suit was  filed at one time because (along with many other abuses) Arpaio kept the  cells ungodly hot and it caused mentally ill inmates’ medications to be  less effective. When MCSO lost the suit, Arpaio’s sadly typical  reaction was to turn the thermostats way down, causing inmates who came  in dressed for outside temperatures often in the low hundreds to suffer  wracking chills and mild hypothermia for the hours they were  incarcerated there. If anyone had an extra shirt it was shared and  several women spooned on the floor to try to conserve heat.  Shoes were  used as pillows.  Never a blanket or pillow was offered to us, though I  was informed that if you were there for 48 hours you were given the  great luxury of a mat and a blanket. 
As  the minutes and hours ticked by in a totally unknown fashion I listened  as several women sat up all night talking. I learned how bail bondsmen  were often blood sucking leeches that nickel and dimed their victims and  how one woman had her baby taken away  with threats that if she didn’t  sign off on adoption papers she wouldn’t come out for a very long time.  One Mexican lady was arrested when she went to pay a traffic fine and  she was stressed about being unable to pick up her kids at school. They  all had a story to tell, some more plausible than others but all  fascinating. They discussed parole and probation, felonies and  misdemeanors, different jails and prisons. They were experts on the  judicial system. 
It  suddenly hit me how my privilege insulated me from what was going on  around me. Sure I was sitting in one of the worst jails in the nation  and I was hurting, my whole body was feeling like a bus hit it, but I  was going to get out and walk into the sunshine and not have any real  lasting effects. I asked to be there and it was more like I was  conducting a science experiment or on a bizarre field trip instead of  being entangled into a system that didn’t easily let its victims go. The  Matrix didn’t ensnare rich or well-educated people in its web, it was  exclusively a poor person’s nightmare. 
The  night passed very slowly under harsh fluorescent lights. I would sit on  the bench until I couldn’t stand it then stand up until I couldn’t  stand it. To help pass the time I counted the cinderblocks on the wall  to measure the dimensions and read the list of bail bondsmen over and  over again. There were four phones on the wall where collect calls out  to land lines were allowed. I contemplated how many people actually had  land lines anymore and how many remembered phone numbers in their heads  in this cell phone age. I couldn’t think of a single one. 
My  friends would sleep for a while then they’d wake and we’d chat and tell  stories. We’d speculate about what was going on outside with our  friends and families and worry about Jovana’s whereabouts. Then they’d  all lie down and sleep again. I was so envious of people who could sleep  on cold concrete. The toilet made an explosive sound every time it was  flushed in both our cell and neighboring cells so nobody slept well. At  one point Sandra was laid out on the floor sleeping next to a bench  where an older frail-looking lady was sitting. The lady dozed off and  toppled right off the bench onto Sandra’s prone body.  That was, by far,  the most exciting thing that happened all night. 
  
Part VII: Our Initial Appearance at Court 
Finally  at some unknown hour in the morning two guards showed with the  breakfast cart. We were each handed a plastic bag containing one  grapefruit (many of which were moldy), two semi-frozen torpedo rolls  (whole wheat– big surprise there), a sealed plastic bag containing about  a third of a cup of peanut butter, a cookie and a small 8oz container  of grape drink. That was apparently the morning half of the diet that  met “the caloric requirements of the USDA”. The other half, consisting  of the exact same menu, was served at night.  I ate my grapefruit and  drank my drink. I figured I needed the hydration since I still couldn’t  work myself up to drinking the water on the toilet tank. The roll was  dry and I was annoyed to find my bag was missing its cookie. We had  about an hour to eat and whatever we didn’t finish was removed. No  saving food was allowed. 
All  during the night guards would come by and take some inmates away and  add others. Finally one woman came into our cell and when she saw our  shirts her eyes lit up, “The tank I just came from had a woman with a  shirt just like that!” she exclaimed. That was the first we knew that  Jovana was somewhere in the jail with us and our relief was enormous.  The guard who was gathering names of inmates to be seen in court that  morning told us he’d bring her over so we’d all be together. Sure enough  within an hour or so Jovana was admitted to our tank and we all hugged  like we hadn’t seen her in years. She claimed to have had a great time  with her new found friends and she described how they’d set up a bowling  alley in their cell with drink bottles as pins and grapefruits as  bowling balls. I was so envious. Some girls really do know how to have  fun. 
At  9:30 we and all the others with minor charges were taken from our tank  and marched down to the misdemeanor courtroom. We were told to sit  together in the front row and were greeted by two public defenders. It  was then that we learned that the press was gathered  in the public  viewing room and watching the proceedings on the monitor. It was our  first information about what was going on in the outside world. 
We  weren’t the only cases to be heard of course; there were about 40 or so  other inmates there for their initial appearance but we assumed we’d be  up first so as to hustle us out of there and send us on our way. We  should have known better. 
All  the other inmates were called forward one by one to see the judge. They  were told what their bond would be or if they could be released on  their own recognizance.  Most of the cases were for failure to appear at  a former court date or failure to pay fines. None of the excuses were  accepted by the judge and bond was required for their release before  their next court appearance. Some pled guilty to their charges but most  pled not guilty. 
After  the first hour ticked by we realized that we were being saved for last,  and we suspected it was intentional. The room was very cold and some of  us were freezing. The metal seats were first uncomfortable and then  painful to sit on. When asked why a fan was running in that frigid room  we were told it was necessary to “keep the computers cool.” I  contemplated my home with multiple computers and the summer thermostat  set at eighty-one degrees and mentally called bullshit. 
After  an hour and a half one of the public defenders came up to us  apologetically and tried to reassure us we’d be seen soon. “I suppose  you can call this ‘attrition through enforcement,’” she quipped.  Of  course attrition through enforcement is the key phrase of SB1070, which  was designed to make life so miserable for immigrants that they’d  voluntarily self-deport. I told her I’d be happy to self-deport myself  out of that building at any time. 
Finally  we were the last left in the room. One by one we were called forth to  plead not guilty and be released on our own recognizance with a date for  our next court appearance. One of the young men who was arrested after  us had an outstanding warrant for driving with a suspended sentence so  he was issued a $500 bond. One of the public defenders explained to the  judge on our behalf that we were protesting “an unjust law” but this was  contested by the prosecutor, who obviously didn’t agree with that point  of view. The judge interjected that this was not a subject that was  going to be argued in his court at that time. 
We  women were then taken from the courtroom and put in a tiny cell  measuring about six feet by twelve feet with several other women and a  toilet.  It was crowded with standing room only. The good news was that  our many bodies finally brought the room temperature up to something  that was bearable. 
  
Part VIII: Mind Games 
The  lawyers in court told us we’d have to wait anywhere from one to three  hours before being released. The guard walking us to our cell told us it  would be more like three to six hours before we got out. That news  brought my mood to a whole new low. The tiny cramped cell lowered it  further. We’d just sat for two hours on metal benches in the court and  now we were going to be sardines for god-only-knows how much longer.   Fortunately the guards came and took a couple of the women out so I  could sit down on the tiny bench. We were getting a bit rowdy and  started chanting. A red-headed female guard came and told us if we’d  shut up she’d have us out in an hour. We agreed and were as quiet as  little mice. 
Time  dragged by slowly and the psychological aspects started to grind on us.  I started getting whiney. Danielle was missing her son. I moaned at the  thought of a nice soft bed. Sandra started talking food porn. Stress  always takes away my appetite but the others were ravenously hungry and  discussed in minute detail each food item they’d eat when we got out.  Many of us needed to move our bowels but none wanted to do it in that  tiny cell so intestinal discomfort was added to the list. We discussed  what we would do first when we got out. The options were eat, shower,  sleep or Facebook. I chose Facebook. The lack of information and contact  with the outside world was by far the hardest thing for me. 
Another  guard came by and we asked the time and learned we’d now been in the  cell for two and a half hours. We asked him when we were going to be  released and he told us it took three to six hours to get out. We  started getting loud and really grumpy. A guard came by with another  woman to add to our cell and we snarled that we were crowded enough  already. He pulled her back out saying, “OK, I’ll put her at the front  of the line out of here then.” That just made us feel worse, of course. 
My  language  deteriorated into the gutter as I started muttering f-bombs  about what  a f-ing gulag the place was and how this was f-ing cruel and  unusual punishment and the guards were all f-ing sadists. Sandra gently  reminded me that there were thousands of people in detention centers  who were separated from their families forever and by comparison we  really had nothing to complain about. 
“But at least they have beds!” I wailed. I was definitely losing it. 
Finally  the time-challenged red-headed guard returned and herded us to another  cell. We were at the final stage before release.  First we were told to  shut up and behave. Then we had to answer some questions proving our  identity, get our fingers printed one last time, sign a release and get  our belongings. Next we were pointed towards the magical door and told,  “When you enter that room the door behind you will close before the door  in front will open.” Sure enough the magic door thing happened and  there in front of us were the swinging doors to freedom. 
We  walked out of the Fourth Avenue Jail to cameras, reporters, news  cameramen, friends, family members and fellow activists who were all  gathered there to greet us. It was the most amazing thing ever. I fell  into my husband’s arms and bawled like a baby. No matter how much I  thought I was ready for that place, I realized that nothing could have  prepared me for what went on in there. We’d entered a kind of hell that  you can only read about but never really imagine. 
Arpaio’s  cruelty showed in every policy, from the freezing tanks with no place  to lie down except on rock hard concrete without something as basic and  decent as a blanket, to the crappy food and sick mind games played by  the guards. It’s a system designed to beat down, dehumanize and punish  those who have not yet even been convicted of a crime, all the while  operating under the misguided belief that if they manage to inflict  enough suffering, people will somehow never return. 
But  it doesn’t work that way in real life. Instead the jail becomes a  Matrix that the poor, the mentally ill, the drug addicted or the poorly  educated find too daunting to navigate out of, akin to beating the  fallen horse that is unable to get up. Not one of them ever wanted to  come back there and yet there they were.  Despite all that, we also  found humanity flourishing in those cells full of women supporting each  other as they struggled to survive in a system designed to ensure  failure. 
I  know I never want to go back to Arpaio’s gulag but it’s also very  possible I may once again find myself out in the middle of a busy street  in Phoenix shouting “Whose streets? OUR streets!” because sometimes it  seems to be the only option left. If SB1070 is upheld I know that many  more of us will need to prepare ourselves to enter The Matrix. 
Only next time I’ll wear a hoodie and I’m definitely going bowling. 
  
(Photo: Robert Haasch/Sand Angel Media, Inc) 
  
(Photo: Bob McMullen) 
  
(Photo: Robert Haasch/ Sand Angel Media, Inc) 
Watch the video by Dennis Gilman of the protests and arrests along with testimony before the Senate Judicial Committee on SB1070. 
"This  article was written by a friend of mine that was arrested for civil  disobedience. Every community has a police or sheriffs office, if we  don't pay attention to what's happening in our own back yards we  shouldn't be so surprised when it comes a knocking at your front door.  Let's put a stop to this right now!"  - Frank M. Miranda 
  
 
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